love hate relationship

as christmas draws near, i start to panic. i am NOT done with my christmas shopping yet. my legs are aching and my shoulder hurts after my first christmas shopping today. damn sad to see the numbers in my bank account decreasing. it is even more painful to realise that the money that i have spent on are not for myself. argH!! anywhere, i have to make another trip down again. hopefully everything will be settled by then. after all these rushings, i shall just treat myself to spend an entire day at home.